“Do you know that feeling when your whole life is falling apart to the point where all you can do is laugh?” - Persephone, Lore Olympus by Rachel Smythe
I haven't written on my blog in a while. I left my prior position; thus, I'm currently searching for employment once more. And now I'm wondering why I ever left. Without going into too much detail, I just didn't feel like it was the appropriate fit for me. My desire was elsewhere because it wasn't in a field, I was passionate about.
This blog post serves as something of a status report on my current situation. Similar like the one I had when I first started working in the field of digital content creation. In this case, the focus is on me improving my mental health and rising above a difficult period. Therefore, I gave this piece the title "Job Hunting in a Quarter Life Crisis." As a result, you will see me at my most vulnerable.
That's all right. First, let's back up and look at the big picture.
Two weeks ago, I resigned from my job. Immediately after leaving the building, I met a friend for a drink. This buddy of mine has been really encouraging ever since I told him I intended to leave my current employer. While we were strolling to the Albion Pub, he posed the question. How are you feeling? " Weird, but a little relieved", I replied. " I'm relieved the issue is now off my mind. I had a good feeling about the future." This response has always struck me as funny. Although the pandemic has not ended, it appears that we have passed the worst of it. It's time for me to get work, and I feel that I have the background to do it.
Yes, I am currently unemployed. Yes, I have experience working as a freelancer. Nonetheless, I believe I have a good idea of what I want. My experience at my prior company gave me a good idea of what I was looking for in a new company. This appears to have been the subject of much discussion during the Great Resignation.
Prior to your using the term, I had brought up the idea of a quarter-life crisis. It's not even close to becoming a midlife crisis. When people in their mid-20s to early-30s feel stuck, uninspired, and disillusioned, they may experience what is known as a "quarter-life crisis," a time of doubt and questioning. One may feel helpless in the face of social pressures to conform, such as when one is in an unfulfilling relationship or a dead-end job while everyone else in one's social circle is getting married and starting families. This is a feeling unlike any other I can remember having. In the past, the closest I came was a sense of being delayed. But I can explain why I felt that way. When I realised that my job was stifling my creativity and not a good fit, I decided to leave. Because of the pressure to succeed, I felt that my nine-year relationship was beginning to seem dangerous. feeling unprepared for the next step for various reasons. I was feeling quite exhausted and burned out, and I wanted to move closer to the city because of the commute. My life seemed to be disintegrating, I thought. I felt somewhat unsafe. This led me to prioritise my own care, indulge in some much-needed self-centeredness, and take other steps to ensure that my mental health was secure. I've been focusing on mental health and self-care for the past week. I've recently updated my cv and am in the process of creating a new portfolio document in addition to doing some freelance design for clients. This brings up the reason I gave up my job creating digital content. In addition to not being a good fit for the work, I didn't feel like I belonged in the organisation. My emotional health was starting to negatively impact my physical health to the point where I needed medical attention. I felt unwell and I didn't want to go to work. I gave it a go for six months before deciding it wasn't for me. The company wasn't terrible, but it wasn't the right fit for me.
How do I currently look?
I am, indeed, actively seeking employment. My current state of relaxation has allowed my mental health to stabilise. And now I'm happier with who I am! In a nutshell, my romantic situation is confusing. I think I have a strategy. Simply put, I want to work in the video game industry. Whether in community responsibilities, art, design, marketing, or as a producer. I have attended a few gaming industries workshops and networking events. It's the kind of upbeat environment that I'd like to be a part of. somewhere I may pursue my interests and develop in the way I envision for myself. This leads to the conclusion that there isn't one. I know, odd sentence. The wheel of fate keeps turning, and I will not give up fighting until I achieve my goals. This is the place I wish to be. Maybe tomorrow or next week I'll start working in this field!
Someone once told me, "Speak it and it'll happen." I'd love to work for Ubisoft, especially with the fantastic Sydney team! Based on what I've seen, I think it's a terrific environment for learning and growth. Any role to learn will make me delighted! I would be content working in any field, including community, production, content and marketing, or art. Although I mentioned Ubi as a company where I'd love to work, I'd also love to work at companies like Bethesda, 2K, or Blizzard. Or even independents such as SMG or Massive Monster! I'd be happy anywhere in the games industry; all I need to do is find my place. Not if but when. Ally McLean is an inspiration of mine. Before she entered the video game business, she was a professional cosplayer. It seems to me that everyone I've met has an amazing story to tell, just like she does.
What happens next in my story? The future? But when not if.
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